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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Something Incomplete...








If Life is my journey, I'll walk it bare feet!
If death is my destiny, I'll embrace it with both arms!
If love is my nemesis, I'll welcome it with an open heart!
If the world is my home, I'll sleep where my eyes close!
If failure is my achievement, I'll celebrate it with my bare soul!!


...

Monday, December 14, 2009

I






I am an individual and I am an individualist!
I am a social rebel and I am a lone wolf!
I will not change, come what may!
I know, I was, I am and I will always be alone, charting my own pathway to hell!
No one will ever stand beside me and I don’t care for anybody!
Why should I care and why should I put my trust on this untrustworthy world full of selfish people?
When no matter how social anybody is and how many relationships they make in life…
On the final destination of death row, everyone stands all alone!!!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

बहोत ज़्यादा है!!




इस देश में हर चीज़ बहोत ज़्यादा है!
जानता हूँ, मानोगे नहीं, क्यूँकि यहाँ अविश्वास बहोत ज़्यादा है!
देश गरीब है तो गरीबों की गरीबी बहोत ज़्यादा है…
पर ध्यान से देखो तो यहाँ अमीरों की अमीरी बहोत ज़्यादा है!
कहीं पे भूख बहोत ज्यादा है तो कहीं पे भोग बहोत ज़्यादा है!!

ये देश बहोत बड़ा है तो यहाँ लोग भी बहोत ज़्यादा है!
वैसे तो हमारा देश एक है मगर, यहाँ प्रदेश बहोत ज़्यादा है!
यूँ  तो हमारी संस्कृति की उम्र बहोत ज़्यादा है…
इसलिए शायद उसकी बूढी हड्डियों में चोट का अहसास बहोत ज़्यादा है!
संविधान कहता है धर्मनिरपेक्ष देश है मगर धर्म के नाम पे लुटेरे बहोत ज़्यादा है!
पीने को साफ़ पानी मिले ना मिले यहाँ बहाने को खून बहोत ज़्यादा है!!

ऑफिसों में फाइलों का बोझ बहोत ज़्यादा है तो बाबुओं की चाय-पानी की प्यास बहोत ज़्यादा है!
हर एक वोट में ताकत बहोत ज़्यादा है तो नेतओं के पास नोट बहोत ज़्यादा है!
सब कहते है यहाँ के सिस्टम में खराबी बहोत ज़्यादा है पर क्या करें हमें काम बहोत ज़्यादा है!
इस देश को एक सच्चे नेता की ज़रूरत बहोत ज़्यादा है पर इस देश में राजनेता बहोत ज़्यादा है!!
कहने को तो हम एक हैं पर यहाँ “मैं” बहोत ज़्यादा है!!

कहना तो मुझे भी बहोत ज़्यादा है क्युंके सवालात बहोत ज़्यादा है!
पर जानता हूँ आपके समय की कीमत बहोत ज़्यादा है!
क्या करें, इस देश में हर चीज़ बहोत ज़्यादा है!
जानता हूँ, मानोगे नहीं, क्यूँकि यहाँ अविश्वास बहोत ज़्यादा है!!!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Wake Up!!!



You didn’t wake up when your trains got blasted!
You didn’t wake up when your temples and mosques were attacked!
You didn’t wake up when your people were killed in the streets and markets!
You woke up when your elites got the bullets and their five star comfort was invaded!
And what a wake up it has been…
Big words of politicians, celebrities and socialites lighting candles, talk shows on media featuring film stars and media just counting the TRP of tragedy!
Has anyone here yet woken up to the real threat, the fear that the common man daily feels!
I don’t think so; I just see an anniversary of a shameful day being celebrated as a National day!!!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

मैं क्यूँ मानु धर्म को?




मैं क्यूँ पूजूं पत्थर की मूरत को जिसे किसी इंसान ने ही सूरत दी हो?
मैं क्यूँ मानु सही उस राह को जिसे किसी इंसान ही ने  खुदा की राह कहा हो?
क्यों कहूँ मैं भगवान् उस पुरषोत्तम को जिसमे गलतियाँ भरी हो?
जब हर इंसान में ही बसे इश्वर तो क्यों मानु उसे पैगम्बर जो खुदको इश्वर-पुत्र  कहता हो?
धर्म के बाज़ार में हर विक्रेता कहे मेरा खुदा बड़ा है …
मैं क्यूँ  खरीदूं ऐसी वस्तु को जिसका मोल किसी भाई का खून हो?
अगर धर्म है खुदा की नेमत तो मैं क्यूँ मानु उसकी इंसानी परिभाषा को?

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Where Am I??


I am there with everyone, but I am not with myself…

I see everyone’s good and bad sides but I can’t see myself…

I see everyone thinking and doing but I don’t think I am able to do anything myself…

I see everyone happy or sad but I don’t feel anything myself…

I see everyone here and there but I can’t find myself…

I see everyone living or dying but I am not alive enough to die myself…

Monday, November 2, 2009

Accusations!!



Its the darkness they accuse me of...
Its the harshness they accuse me of...
Its the rashness they accuse me of...
Its the brashness they accuse me of...

But have they ever seen themselves while they write me off...
They would look different once they take the glasses of self-indulgence off...
How dark, harsh and rash their wold is made of..
and I am nothing but a mirror for them to see what they are actually made of!!!

Friday, September 25, 2009

इल्जाम और सजा



हमपे इल्जाम लगाना ये तो दुनिया की आदत पुरानी है.

हर इल्जाम को अब खामोशी से मान लेना हमने भी सीख ली है.

वैसे भी क्या करना खुदको बेगुनाह साबित करके, जब ता-उम्र गुनाहगारों की कैद में ही गुजारनी है.

सोचता हूँ अब तो कोई गुनाह कर ही डालूं, शायद तब मन की मुराद पूरी हो जाये,

आखिर सजा--मौत से ही तो मेरे उम्र-कैद से रिहाई तारीख मुकम्मल होनी है!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

क्यूँ नहीं...??


कीतनी शराब पीयूू मैं के इस दुनीया का हर झूठा सच डूब जाये...
कीतने नकाब उतारूं मैं के सजे-सवंरे चहरो में छुपे हैवान बाहर आजाएँ...
कीतना धुआं उठेगा और इस जलते सीने से के हर बेईमान दोस्त अपनी शक्ल छुपा पाए...
पूछता हूँ सबसे बस ये एक ही सवाल की कीतनी बार मरुँ मैं के अपनों में छिपे हर बेगाने के नकली आंसूं सूख जाएँ...!!

खोजते-खोजते इन सवालों के जवाब कुछ और भी सवाल मेरे ज़हन पे उठ आये...
क्यूँ नहीं काट डाला उन सब हाथों को जो दोस्ती के लिए बढ़ आये...
क्यूँ नहीं जला डाला उन सब खूबसूरत चहरों को जो मुस्कुराता हुआ मेरे सामने आये...
क्यूँ ढूंढ़ता हूँ सच को जब ये ज़िंदगी, ये दुनीया सब झूठी नज़र आये...
क्यूँ मर नहीं गया था उसी दीन जब अपन ही मुझे पराया कर आये...
आखीर क्यूँ है ये बेमानी से सवाल-जवाब जब मेरी बाते सुनने का होश कीसी को नहीं आये..!!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

ज़िन्दगी का सफ़र



ऐसे तय करना है मुझे इस सफ़र को जिसे शायर ने कहा ज़िन्दगी का अजीब सफ़र है.
नहीं सोचना की ये सफ़र है हकीकत या कोई ख्वाब, जब सफ़र के आखिर में सच को सामने आना ही है.
नहीं याद करना मिलते और बिछड़ते हमराहों को, जब मंजिल पे अकेले ही पहुचना है.
नहीं करनी किसी चीज की तलाश इस राहेसफ़र में, जब साथ कुछ रहना नहीं है.
नहीं भटकना यूँ इधर-उधर जब आखरी मुकाम मुकम्मल है.
नहीं करना जद्दो-जहद एक आशियाँ ढूँढने की, जब सफ़र में रुकने की फुर्सत नहीं है.
चैन के दो पल भी नहीं चाहता बीच राह पे, जब मंजिल पे चिरनिद्रा की बेदी बिछी है.
बस बहते जाना है मुझे वक़्त के बहाव में, और इंतज़ार उस पल का जो इस सफ़र की अंतिम घरी है!

Monday, June 15, 2009

I'l be there, near but far!

I know I had promised a lot,
of being a friend a friend could trust.
Of being there, when a friend was needed the most.
Of being a joker when laughter was needed, of beng a conspirator, when some michief was the need,
of being a listener when a friend was lonly and sad.
But I also know I've not been able to be anything but me.
And I also know that I was'nt always right.
But I wont say sorry, because thats never needed between friends.
I wont run away, I'l be there, but a bit far, for I fear to cause more damage to those near and dear.
It's better that way, i'tz for the greater good.
They can have all the joy and I can be content seeing them happy and together.

Friday, June 12, 2009

The Spirit



Everything can be snatched away from me.
Everything can be lost by me.
I might be rendered totally hopeless and helpless.
But the spirit would live for what is so dear to me.

I have soul of the wolf inside,
that eggs me on for one more fight,
he can be bruised, battered, and left to die.
But I won’t give up, the wolf will fight.
From the ashes I will rise as the phoenix to the sky.

I know it won’t be easy, the enemy is strong,
and the one strongest is none but me.
But I won’t hide and I won’t cry,
and I won’t loose what I hold so precious, my heart and the spirit inside.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

खोया मुकाम...


ऐसा लगता है कुछ टूट सा गया है...
पिछले मोड़ पे कोई मुकाम छूट सा गया है...
पीछे मुडके वापिस जाने की कोशिश भी कर ली मैंने,
पर वापसी की राह कही खो सा गया है...

कोई पुकार लेता हमे वहा से शायद तो कदम बढाता भी मैं पर,
मेरे साथ मेरी यादों ने भी वहा से रुखसत लिया है...
अब आगे बढूँ ये भी मुमकिन नही लगता,
मेरे आगे कोई राह भी तो दीखता नही है...
अब तो मेरे साथ वक्त भी ठहर सा गया है,
अंधेरे जंगल में वो भी कही राह भटक सा गया है...
शायद मौत का इंतज़ार भी अब बेमानी सा है,
वो भी शायद किसी और ही राह बढ़ गया है!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

जिंदगी के कुछ अनसुलझे सवाल!


ऐसा क्यूँ है के जिस सवाल का जवाब नही होता, वही चाहता हूँ मै पूछना?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के जो बात कहनी है उसके लिए सही शब्द नही चुन पता?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के जानता हु कोई कवि नही मै, फ़िर भी यूँ ही बेमतलब कलम रहता हूँ चलता?
ऐसा क्यों है के उम्मीदी के अंधेरे में भी किसी रौशनी का इंतज़ार ख़त्म नही होता?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के जिसकी तलाश है वो खुदा कही नही मिलता?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के दिल तो था पत्थर का, पर लगता है सीने में कोई खंजर सा चुभा हुआ?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के जब आँखों में आंसू नही फ़िर भी कुछ पलकों से बहार छलकने को तरसता?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के किसी को दो पल की खुशी देने क काबिल नही मै, फ़िर भी ख़ुद ही मुस्कुराने की कोशिश हु करता?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के अकेले रहना ही बेहतर जनके भी दोस्तों का साथ नही छोड़ सकता?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के जनता हु मौत में ही मिलेगी शान्ति मुझे, फ़िर भी जीना नही छोड़ता?
ऐसा क्यूँ है के जिस सवाल का जवाब नही होता, वही चाहता हूँ पूछना?


Tuesday, June 2, 2009

राहे ज़िन्दगी




थक गया हु राहे ज़िन्दगी में चलते-चलते, ठोकरें खाते-खाते और संभलते-संभलते!



कोई साया भी नहीं जो ठहर लूँ दो पल को, कोई हमसफ़र भी नहीं दो बाते करने को साथ में!



अब तो खो गया है मंज़िल का पता भी कही, भटक गया हूँ राह पिछले किसी मोड़ पे!






न जाने फिर भी क्यूँ चला जा रहा हूँ मै, यूँ ही भटकता हुआ इस अनजान वीराने में…



अपने कदमो की आहात भी एक शोर सी लगती है अब, आदत जो हो गयी है खामोश सन्नाटे की!



अब तो दिल की हर ख्वाहिश दफना दी है मैने, छुपा था जो हर हसरत में मेरी, कुछ खोने या कुछ न पाने का डर॥



बस एक ही तम्मान्ना लिए अब तो आगे बढ़ रहा हूँ मै, शायद हो अगला मोड़ ही इस राह का अंत!!






Thursday, May 28, 2009

Only Redemption can be Sought is Atonement by Death!!




For the sins of the past, one seeks what is lost.


Only condemnation to be found and no redemption can be sought.


Only solace one can find is in atonement by death.


One can only hope that death doesn’t elude the eternally condemned soul!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Friend...

He is the friend I have always hated the most.
He is the one who has been with me the most.

It's said the truest of the friends stay by your side when you are in a problem,
that makes him the best.
He has been with me when there was no sign of the rest.

I have tried to avoid him him, tried to dispel his influence on me,
tried to run away far from him. But he has stuck with me forever.
He promised to be there when my final moment is near.

To prove that he is the truest, he will write his own name on my tombstone,

that will shine through the coming many-many years...


"Here lies the true friend of Failure!!"




Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Buzy Life

Busyness is the buzzword today.
Every one is busy in their own way.
Its like being busy is the way of life.
Someone is busy making something, someone is busy breaking something.
Someone is busy entangling others life, Someone is busy untangling own life.
Someone is busy enjoying life, someone is busy running from life.
Whoever they are, wherever they are, whatever they do, they all seem just too busy.

Then why am I, one among these busy bees, cant find the reason to be busy.
The way of everyone elses life, why it isn't mine?
Am I alive or am I busy watching everyone else being busy?
Whatever it is, I just hope when my time is up,
I'm not too busy for appreciating the unbusy life I had or for deciding,
if the afterlife I would have, will be busy or unbusy!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Indian Tennis: Raising Hopes



In the last few weeks we are celebrating a resurgence of Indian tennis at the Australian open with an unprecedented show of two titles at the same Grand Slam. Sania Mirza and Mahesh Bhupathi won their first Grand Slam together making Sania the first Indian woman to win a Grand Slam and the Indian colt Yuki Bhambri becoming the fourth Indian to win a junior Grand Slam after father-son duo of Ramanathan and Ramesh Krishnan and Leander Paes.


But this is not the only time the Indian tennis fans have had their hopes raised about the resurgence of Indian tennis. Relatively recent events like the Paes-Bhupathi dream run of 1999-2000 when they reached all four Grand Slam finals in 1999 and emergence of tennis siren Sania Mirza in 2005 have given tennis enthusiasts much hope.


But if we trace the history of tennis in India since it was brought here by the Britishers we can find may such moments of glory that under those circumstances had seemed more crucial than the recent achievements. In the 1880s the British Army and Civilian Officers taught Indians the game soon after it was originally formalized in Britain. It got popularity here very soon and tennis tournaments were started in the country: `Punjab Lawn tennis Championship` at Lahore in 1885; `Bengal Lawn Tennis Championship` at Kolkata in 1887 and the All India Tennis Championships at Allahabad in 1910. Initially these tournaments were dominated by the Britishers, but then Indians started emerging onto the scene. Players like Mohd. Saleem, NS Iyer and Nagu started the Indian victory season that just kept on rolling after that. Mohd. Saleem the first player to win the Punjab Championship also won the title consecutively from 1919 to 1926. This rise in the game’s popularity gave birth to the All India Lawn Tennis Association (AILTA) in 1920 at Lahore. Its first AGM decided to hold an annual event at Allahabad named `All India National Championships’ and its inaugural edition in 1922 was won by the ‘Punjab Lawn Tennis Association’ team led by Mohd. Saleem.


AILTA’s most crucial decision came in the form of sending an Indian team to the Davis Cup in 1921 as this decision put India on the international tennis map. This first Indian Davis Cup team consisting of prominent players like SM Jacob, Mohd Saleem, LS Deane and AA Fayzee performed exceptionally beating all odds as well as a strong French team to reach the semifinals. The impressive premiere show of Indian tennis at the Davis Cup laid the foundation of great Indian Davis Cup tradition that was further strengthened by the rolling Indian juggernaut between 1922-1929 when it steamrolled a number of strong nations like France, Romania, Holland, Belgium, Spain and Greece. This Indian tennis tide was driven mainly by the greats like Mohd. Sleem, the Fayzee brothers AH Fayzee and AA Fayzee, Krishna Prasad and Cotah Ramaswamy.


Apart from Davis Cup, Indians were also making their mark at other professional tennis tournaments around the globe including the Grand Slams from as early as 1905 when BK Nehru became the first Indian to take part in the prestigious Wimbledon championship. He was followed by Sardar Nihal Singh, M. Saleem, Fayzee brothers and Jagat Mohan Lal. In 1939, the then undisputed numero uno of Indian tennis Ghouse Mohammad went on to reach the quarterfinal of Wimbledon. The Davis Cup and Wimbledon success also translated in notable success at the Olympics. In 1924 Mohd Saleem with Fayzee represented the country in the 1924 Paris Olympics; Saleem even went on to the singles semi-finals. As India continued to reap rich success at prestigious tournaments like the Davis Cup and Wimbledon, the world began to stand up and take notice.

Post World War, AILTA decided to hold one Grass court championship called the National Championships of India and one Hard Court tournament named All India Hard Court Championships. The first edition of Grass Court National Championship was held at Calcutta in 1946. As the National championship was open to foreigners Indians enjoyed less success till the 1950s when Ramanathan Krishnan changed the trend and won the title for a record eight times in a row between 1953 and 1964. Ramanathan Krishnan as a young lad brought home India’s first major success when he was crowned the Junior Wimbledon Champion. He was also the first Asian to do so. He was also seeded 4th at the 1962 Wimbledon. The 1960`s belonged to the troika of Ramanathan Krishnan, Jaideep Mukerjea and Premjit Lal and India kept performing well in the Davis Cup winning the Zonal Championships and also making it to the Inter – Zonal finals. They along with SP Misra were instrumental in taking India to the finals in 1966. Even though India failed to capture the trophy, Krishnan and Mukerjea`s win over New Combe and Tony Roche, the Doubles Wimbledon Champions in 1965 was one of the major upsets in the history of the championships.


A new star, Vijay Amritraj came up on the horizons of Indian tennis in the 1970`s. Even though Amritraj never won any Grand Slam tournaments, His Grand Slam performances of reaching quarterfinals of the US Open in 1973 and 1981 and Wimbledon in 1973 and 1974 are still unmatched by Indians. He even took India to the Davis Cup finals in 1974 along with Shashi Menon, Jasjit Singh and brother Anand Amritraj. Had India not refused to play South Africa in the Finals due to political reasons, we most likely would have got our first title then. After Amritraj, Ramanathan Krishnan’s son Ramesh Krishnan showed that he had the same tennis genes as his father. In fact he outperformed his father and won both the junior Wimbledon as well as the junior French title in 1979 and attained No.1 ranking in junior tennis. In the years to follow, He had a similar run like Amritraj as he reached the quarters at Wimbledon in 1986 and the US Open twice, without the final glory. Krishnan too played a pivotal role in helping India reach the Davis Cup finals for a third time in 1987.

In the modern era of post 1990s, another youngster came to take on the mantle of Indian Tennis. Leander Paes emulating Ramesh Krishnan won two junior Grand Slam titles, Wimbledon in 1990 and US Open in 1991 and became World No1 in junior rankings. His contribution to Indian Davis Cup success is well known. Another singles high point of Leander Paes was when he won the Tennis Singles Bronze medal at the 1996 Atlanta Olympics beating Fernando Meligeni of Brazil. The dynamic duo of Leander Paes and Mahesh Bhupathi brought India the first Grand Slam success at the senior level. Their greatest achievements of making it to all the four Grand Slam Doubles Finals in 1999 while winning Wimbledon and US Open was a dream come true. Even though personal differences between this former No. 1 doubles pair in the world brought a split their continuing doubles and mixed doubles Grand Slam trophy victories with different partners keep India firmly on the world tennis map. Mahesh Bhupathi has become India’s most successful player at the Grand Slams with a total of 11 Grand Slam doubles titles (Four Mens Doubles and Seven Mixed Doubles) and Leander has won a total of 8 Grand Slam doubles titles (Four Mens Doubles and Seven Mixed Doubles).


The recent Sania Mirza-Mahesh Bhupathi Australian Open victory was a remarkable feat. Sania has followed it up with her runners up show at the Pataya Open to firmly declare that she is truly back much improved than ever. Sania has been a flag bearer of Indian women’s tennis. After her Fed Cup debut in 2003, she has been known for her giant killing and impressive Grand Slam show. She was the first Indian girl to win Grand Slam when she with Alisa Kleybanova of Russia won the 2003 Wimbledon Championships Girls' Doubles title. Her best Grand Slam Women’s singles result came in 2005 US Open when she reached the 4th Round. Apart from this she has also reached 3rd Round of Australian Open twice and 2nd round of French Open and Wimbledon (Thrice). She is the highest ranked female tennis player ever from India, with a career high ranking of 27 in singles and 18 in doubles. Apart from this she has 12 ITF and one WTF titles to her credit.


Now after Yuki’s Grand Slam victory Indian fans are upbeat again and with Sania too becoming the first Indian woman ever to win a Grand Slam an all round tennis growth looks a likely possibility. With upcoming players like Rohan Bopanna, Prakash Amritraj in Men’s and the Bhambhri sisters Ankita and Sanaa and Isha Lakhani in Women’s the great tradition of Indian Tennis seems to be holding on. What is needed is a little enthusiasm from Corporates, Government and Public towards this game which has been no less than Cricket in terms of international success by miles.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

कशमकश ज़िन्दगी की!

कहनी है शायद कोई कहानी मगर, मैं बोलता भी नहीं, कोई समझता भी नहीं!
जाना है कही दूर ज़माने से मगर, चलता भी नहीं, मैं ठहरता भी नहीं!
खोया हूँ कही अपने आप में मगर, कोई मिलता भी नहीं, मैं ढूंढ़ता भी नहीं!
रात का साया है हर ओर मगर, सोता भी नहीं, मैं जगता भी नहीं!
दिल में कुछ टीस सी है मगर, रोता भी नहीं, मै हँसता भी नहीं!
ना जाने क्या चाहता हूँ मगर, कुछ मिलता भी नहीं, मै कुछ खोता भी नहीं!
ज़िन्दगी यूँही गुज़रती नहीं मगर, मरता भी नहीं, मै जीता भी नहीं!!!


--------किसी दुश्मन से ज़िन्दगी मांगी थी शायद, जो ज़िन्दगी ही दुश्मन हो गई है!
किसी दोस्त से मौत मांगी थी शायद, जो मौत भी बेवफा हो गई है!!